yeah.

couldn't have said it better myself... so i won't.

http://hillsongunited.com/blog/2009/04/welcome-america

max the melody... sign me up.

so now i better understand the psalms and why they were set to music and why it's so necessary for the BIBLE to mention that fact... 'cuz thoughts have an amazing ability to permeate way deeper with melody...

just something about a melody that emotes... that unravels... that opens up... that reveals... that pierces... that delivers revelation... that searches deep...

i love the word DEEP... it's really BEAUTIFUL...

sign language too... the silent language... adding depth and grace... fluidity... to our sometimes unwillingly and agonizingly imprisoned venacular... a beautiful communication... of expression... of a heart... from a heart... to a heart...

bypassing the obvious... bypassing the boring... bypassing the verbal...

wanna learn it...

anyway, wish i could share my thoughts more with melody... 'cuz then maybe it would more accurately convey the etherial beauty overflowing from within... helping to illuminate the un-randomly real revelations that capture and captivate me...

sooo.

i'm forced to reach farther, dig deeper... with words... with the WORD... in the WORD... after all... the WORD that GOD speaks is alive and full of power [making it active, operative, energizing, and effective]; it is sharper than any two-edged sword, penetrating to the dividing line of the breath of life (soul) and [the immortal] spirit, and of joints and marrow [of the deepest parts of our nature], exposing and sifting and analyzing and judging the very thoughts and purposes of the heart...

GOD, please place songs within my heart... and give me the ability to outwork them through my mind, my soul, my SPIRIT... YOUR SPIRIT within me... and my body...

thank u. i love you. more than i know how to express with words.

silent transformation...

i saw some clouds today... beautifully adrift in the heavens... adorning its' vast gates...

they were light and whispy and white... and seemingly motionless...

as if they were waiting there... for us... just laying there... with us...

beside that pool... on an oh so splendid, sunny, warm australian afternoon...

but they weren't... they were anything but... motionless... their movement mesmerized me as they slowdanced across the spacious sapphire sky...

morphing into my imagination...

in just one pass... flounder the fish, simon gustav the lizard, a fishy's skeletal system, the red aussie kmart crawling crazy commercial sock midge... and even long island... north and south forks 'n all...

sooo...

such is life... and so much like life... seemingly at a standstill, yet sorta silently but endlessly changing... unnoticeably, yet permanently transforming... in such a temporary fashion... only to transform yet again... and again... and again... and again...

and again...

from strength to strength... from faith to faith... from glory to glory...

the seasonal ebb and flow...

of this crazy and amazing thing called...

life.

i miss you.

i miss you.
:(

the billabong. and the boab.

the sincere depth just beyond that beautiful smile...

that i see... that i sense... that i feel...

like a deep and refreshing pool of water... a silent billabong... still and calm on the surface yet teeming with life from within... a myriad of marvels that lie just beneath... an amazing world worthy of discovery...

the sincere depth buried just behind those eyes...

that i feel... that i sense... that i see...

like that of a boab tree... unique... uncommon... unwavering... standing tall amidst a dry and parched land... standing out from among the others... displaying wisdom and strength beyond its' years...

it's mystifying... it's beckoning... i am drawn to it... because... it's rare... and it's beautiful... i know it full well... i get it... deeply...

guess i'm just scared to show it...

no toll necessary... GOD's e-z pass...

sooo, it's a crazy sorta thing... to feel sooo at home and sooo at peace half a world away from the home i have known all my life, thus far, anyway...

at times, it blows my mind when i look around and i realize i am actually living in australia... the land down under... where women glow and men plunder... can you hear, can you hear, the thunder...

okay stop that now, seriously though...

a real mental trip sometimes... to be on the other side of the planet, so far from... my once so much... family, familiar, 'ol version of life... yada yada yada... yeah yeah yeah... duh duh duh... been there... said that... already...

to walk away from such cool luxuries i consistently enjoyed, like those amazing... pure peppermint oil deep tissue massages... thanks sue.

and those, hurts so good, skeletally releasing chiropractic adjustments... thanks dr. lois.

and of course, the occasional, but oh so wondorous pedicure/foot massage... thanks little chinese lady.

and the even funnier thing is... i sooo haven't even needed or really even desired any of those things since i have been here... in spite of the myriad of stresses that are attached to a global repositioning, in spite of the seemingly endless walking and carrying, and in spite of all the dancing, dancing, dancing, etc. etc. etc...

(*disclaimer* will still welcome a massage at any time though... thaaank uuu)

so in the world's economy these things are known to take a toll on the average human body... the average human person... such is not the case in GOD's economy though... and besides i'm not average... period... never have been... never will be... in any way... 'cuz my GOD is not average and in HIM i live and move and have my being...

HE paid my toll... HE e-z passed me in the hov lane...

and speaking of luxuries... how 'bout the luxury of gettin' a paycheck!!! haven't had one in how long now?... almost 3 months... and still i have peace!!! now, that's a miracle!... i used to get a bit stressed about spendin when i was gettin' paid... even on purposeful and necessary stuff... crazy!... but now, i can't work up a stress over it, even if i try... i'm just covered... pretty cool hay.

i mean i still have bills... and even some new ones... yet i am flooded with peace... i still have to live... to eat... to wear... to pay... and things are way more expensive here than in the great u.s. of a. that's fo' sho'...

yet still i am overcome from the inside out with peace... the kind of peace that surpasses all understanding... reminding myself to be anxious for nothing but in all things with prayer, petition and thanksgiving... letting my requests be made known to GOD and HE gives me that unsurpassable peace... choosing to meditate on things that are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, virtuous and praiseworthy...

and oh yeah... GOD... thank u again for the generous tax return...

so, it indeed is a funny thing... this chasing GOD thing... 'cuz all that other stuff just plain pales in comparison to the pull, the tug, the desire, the call...

the CALL of GOD... HIS HOLY calling... many are called, few are chosen...

i am chosen... set apart... my destiny in HIM...

my destiny is HIM...

just no comparison... all the combined riches in the world, all the finest cattle on the priciest of hills... just plain don't compare... period.

so as i write this... my single focus is purposed to once again be GOD and HIS amazing plan...

i surrender... again.

i die... yet again.

truly i do.

picture this: a little stick figure laying on the ground with x's as eyes and tongue hanging out of mouth, maybe even wearing a hat, hay... that's me here...

hungry once again... gimme some food pleaze... hungrier and thirstier... hungry to eat from the endless vine of LIFE... thirsty to drink from the well of ever refreshing LIVING WATER that never runs dry... desperate to be deeply initimate with that alone which truly satisfies...

new and creative desires conceived, giving way to new and creative goals... that need to be embraced... fed... nurtured... birth forth...

on another note...

colour 1 was great... album recording also great... and colour 2 even greater...

more on all that some other time... when the SPIRIT leads...

on a more random note... i detest the word 'mince'... it's way too common here... just such a gross little word hay.

toodles for now... XD

jmo

shimmering siam sunset...

restful.

o LORD GOD of hosts,
who is mighty like YOU, o LORD
YOUR faithfulness also surrounds YOU
YOU rule the raging of the sea
when its waves rise, YOU still them... psalm 89:8-9

though it thunders... i am still and YOU are GOD... therefore...

hear my cry, O GOD
attend to my prayer
from the end of the earth i will cry to YOU
when my heart is overwhelmed
lead me to the ROCK that is higher than i

for YOU have been a shelter for me
a STRONG TOWER from the enemy
i will abide in YOUR tabernacle forever
i will trust in the shelter of YOUR wings... psalm 61

Selah

with quietness and rest YOU calm the storm in me...

i seek refuge and am safe in YOU...

YOUR peace you give to me...

for i know YOU are GOD....

i am still...

i am restful.

to my family and friends...

to my family and friends... i love you...

i don't know if i say it enough or even show it enough... sorry for that...

and with so much physical and geographical distance between us now... it's hard to express it... accurately enough...

we may not see each other as often as we did... we may not talk as much as we used too...

but just know... that not a day goes by that i don't think of you... not a day goes by that i don't miss you sincerely... and seriously...

it's so true... from that deep and sensitive place in my heart that struggles to give expression... the place that hurts to feel... words are just not enough... not any words that i know anyway...

i miss u more than you will probably ever know... and appreciate the workmanship of GOD's magnificent hands in you... how uniquely beautiful each and every one of you are... so-called "imperfections" 'n all... whether you know it or not... whether you feel it or not... it's so true... you have been fearfully and wonderfully made, knit together so perfectly... and you are beautiful...

you are beautiful and i can see it... i miss you... heaps... and i love you... more than you'll ever know...