SOOO SAFE... from the wildfires too...

so, one of those big decisions i made a long time ago was... to be transparent, to be open, to be honest, to be vulnerable, and to be REAL in all things at all times... and in the past, at times, it has gotten me into a bit of trouble here and there... but never the bad kind of trouble really... rather the good kind of trouble... the 'stirring of hearts' kind of trouble... if u know what i'm sayin.... so i'm just puttin that out there cuz my realness is quite intentional and besides it's just who i am... that's the only way i know how to be... can be... and will be...

so, the first week i got here... i was already trying to problem solve my way outta here... go figure... isn't that just like our finite, insecure human frailty... we so intensely long and pray for certain dreams to come to pass and then when they finally arrive... we want to run back to the land of familiar with our tail between our legs and our head in the sand... if that's even simultaneously possible anyway...

so for the first few days... i gave myself 6 months... and i said... i'm outta here and then i go back to my old life and my old ways and it will all be fine... little did i know... little did i already know... and boy i certainly should have known after all these years anyway... GOD has other plans...

and soooo it goes... cuz that's just not how my GOD works anyway... HE doesn't enlarge a vision and a territory only to take it away... HE doesn't plant a beautiful seed to produce beautiful fruit (under the right conditions of course) only to cut it down in it's prime... after all, that's what it was created for... to flourish... to live... TO BE... it's beautiful existence alone glorifies its' creator... nor does it toil, nor does it worry or fear of what tomorrow will bring or how its' provision will come... it just is... and it's quiet, confident beauty is beyond compare...


matthew 6.25 "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.


however, it does indeed need to be pruned and it does need to experience the seasons in life... the seasons OF life... as harsh as they may be at times... ironically, it's those very seasons that contribute to it's very strength and character and endurance and....... surpassing beauty.......

sooo, i sense that's probably one of the biggest things that GOD wants to do in my heart this year... what HE wants me to really "get" this year... is to just 'BE'... to no longer get my worth and my value from what i do, or what i think i need to do, rather from who i am in HIM... from who i was made to be... even more so... from WHOSE i am... i am HIS...

so with that said, i'm feelin better about things again... and just amazed how GOD just so comes through with the 'goods' literally and figuratively sooo faithfully and sooo consistently and on sooo many levels... it's completely convicting and hugely humbling...

thanks to all of you that have reached out to encourage me... it means the world to me... and i luv u for it...

peace... jmo